#1 - Outpour
Ever since I got pregnant, I feel like I'm a different person. I refrain from looking in the mirror, I prefer to have my video off during meetings. I don't like what I see in my reflection, videos, or photos. I wasn't like this before. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful that I had my son. I love him. It's just that these days, I find myself thinking or doing things differently. I'm insecure... I used to be confident and carefree (in a good light) I'm sensitive... I didn't give a sh t sometimes. I easily get mad... while I would just laugh at those before. I envy some people... while I would feel genuinely happy for them before. Sometimes I don't feel loved... back then, I was full of love. I already took a break from work for a week. I was on a holiday on those days. But I feel... tired. Lost and tired. I don't know. Right now, I'm crying while I'm writing this. With a hope that I could breathe after, and...